I tried to talk to you during Mass, but the priest kept interrupting my train of thoughts. When I finally had a chance... I probably sounded ridiculous because I was floating. I was floating (sage's fault), and I was trying not to cry. The only chance I had to have a more formal conversation, and instead I go on a tangent on how much I miss you and how much I hope Mike is okay.
I've waited twenty days to tell you this: I'm afraid I'm reverting back to where I was on the day you died.
One night, I was thinking about you, thinking about your memory, when I began to think about your death. Usually, the thoug
What if the rest of Linkin Park commits suicide!? There! I said it!
You can say all you want that I'm overreacting, but I will tell you now that I will not care because I am seriously worried!
July 21, 2017. The night I began to worry. July 21, 2018. The night I tell you a little secret.
My first journal about The Worry was posted on August 09, 2017, 19 days after I began to worry. Some of you might be asking, "why did you wait that long?"
Here's why: I thought about telling you the next morning, but I began to worry you would think I'm doing it for attention. So, I didn't until I couldn't keep it in anymore. Even today, I think, I shouldn
Suicidal Mike (Part Two) (DREAM) by Tortive, literature
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Suicidal Mike (Part Two) (DREAM)
The auditorium had royal blue-colored carpeting and dark blue seats. The walls were wooden. The auditorium itself was cavernous! Some of the lights were still on.
Mike Shinoda was having a concert there. (A strange concert.) I was part of the audience. He sang some new songs, songs I've never heard. Songs I don't remember him making.
Then, he sat down on a stool and started talking about "Hold it Together". Mike said he wrote it because he read my letter. Obviously, I was embarrassed and excited at the same time.
He stood up and hopped off the stage, walking to the place where I sat. Everyone in that row stood up.
"Hold these," Mike said.
Mike Shinoda and I left Wonderland for a spell.
×××
I was at my grandparents' house.
Leonidafremov (https://www.deviantart.com/leonidafremov) was lying on the bed with me (in what is mine and my sister's room.) We were looking at a screen map thing, which showed all of Mike's houses, some out of state. Leonid suggested the houses were for his family.
Mike...
×××
My sister and I entered the apartment. Mike was already there, and damn it, he attempted suicide! (That's what I remember.) I don't remember how, though.
Then, I found some sketches I inked over. They were probably Wonderland sketches. The first one wasn't colored in, but I saw the color a
Saving Mike Shinoda (A Dream) by Tortive, literature
Literature
Saving Mike Shinoda (A Dream)
I had the dream before I woke up. You see, my sister and I went to a shop that sold Halloween pranks, and one of them was we could write a letter to someone saying they’re going to Hell. So, we chose a guy with red hair who was mean to us.
Then, I learned Mike was in Hell! We needed to save him!
“We”? Who’s “we”? The surviving members of Linkin Park who weren’t trapped in a place of eternal torture! (Rob bourdon, Brad Delson, Mr. Hahn, and Phoenix.) We got to Hell through the fireplace in my mom’s apartment.
There was no Lake of Fire. There were no nine circles, like what Dante
When I look back at this, I wonder, Where did we go wrong? We were there to catch you.
Then, I wonder, But was anyone there to pardon you from crimes you didn't commit? I don't think we were.
We were there to save him; we thought we saved him.
I believed Chester got through it. I believed he won the fight against his demons. I thought with the support of his friends and family and Music, those demons wouldn't try to kill him anymore! I didn't know "Murder" was still there, becoming more identical to him physically every day. I didn't know it was planning on killing Chester. I didn't know, and I feel like I should have.
This is wha
I haven't dreamed of Mike Shinoda in a while, but this morning, I did.
It was vauge, though. What I remember is Mr. Shinoda wearing a white turtleneck sweater and blue jeans. He was surprised to learn he knew Magic. Anna was there, too. Actually, they were in a crowd of people who didn't seem to care about Mike's new ability.
On the plus side, it was nothing like the first dream. In the first dream, people were ignorant and treated him like a trophy hunt!
This one...this is a good one.